I am having a hard time sleeping myself...

From Left to right: My sister, Elena, and I

Many of you have become friends, so I thought I should come clean with all of you why I have been a little more distant than usual.

And then there is grief…

I want to thank you all for your kind and supportive words within these last couple of months. They mean so much to me! I am not going to lie… the last couple of months have been the most difficult of my entire life. 


My sister passed away unexpectedly in mid-June and I have not been the same since… To be honest, seeing her on life support gave me hope… I prayed… I read her get well cards and I held her hand and I prayed, I prayed, I prayed…

Just when I think I can move on, the memories of my sister come before my eyes. I hear her laugh, I can feel her tight warm bear hugs... and it feels so surreal that she is gone… At times, it feels like the whole world stops…except that it does not stop…the world with everyone in it keeps spinning around the sun and here I am wishing I could have done more to help my sister. 
If only I knew she was unwell… if only I knew, I would have dropped anything and everything to help her. But she is gone now and all I have left is her clothes that I kept that still smell like her, her make-up, her perfume, her pictures and memories…

Within these last couple of months, this grief brought our small family together, tore us apart and then brought us together again… I’ve read articles and books on grief, joined a Facebook group thinking it would help stop the pain, and even considered getting away for a meditation retreat… Except, I cannot leave my mother and my niece behind… we are all doing our best…well, the best we can, given the situation.

Similar to the start of the war with Russia, my mom and I turned to making things. We made gummies. I want to thank you also for keeping us busy! It really helps knowing that we make a difference in your well-being and this is what we are here for. Plus my mom and I enjoy our mother daughter time.

During the past couple months I have been playing around with two new versions of purple dreams that I hope helps you with getting a good night sleep. These formulas are more potent containing CBN and higher mg of CBD. The full-spectrum version has THC and the other formula is THC-free, or Broad Spectrum. A perfect formula for those who cannot tolerate THC or who gets drug tested for work. 

We are also considering doing some charitable work around these events. More to come later.
So, I just wanted to thank you for helping to keep us busy. 

Love, Tanya

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